Why write? Why share? Why now?
It’s about 1.5 months since I started this blog! YAY, CELEBRATE! :)
Celebrate the practice of writing, celebrate growth in this space, celebrate commitment in writing regularly!
Recently I noticed that I have been feeling emotions of overwhelm, self-doubt, and “not inspired” to write even though I committed myself to writing at least once a week. I have not been doing yoga as much this week as well.
Revisiting: Why write?
It’s about building a practice to organise my thoughts, and gain clarity about myself, who I am. Writing as a practice helps me to reflect and allow my inner voices to surface in the stillness as I put my thoughts down on paper.
In short, it is a practice of building awareness of my own thoughts so that I am more conscious of them. With awareness, comes choice to create different results.
It is time I block for myself, as a gift to myself. It creates a space of possibilities where I feel free - and this can manifest in other areas of my life if i can practice it right here.
Why share?
There is a part of me that seeks to connect with people and the bigger world out there. I believe by sharing more of myself openly on a blog, it can create the authentic human connection I am seeking for. Because connection is built upon what you know about me, whether you can relate to what I write here.
If I don’t open myself up first, i know the chances are dead zero. I think it’s worth putting myself out there for this!
So this blog is way of manifesting my intention into reality. Of course, there are other ways. But it has to start somewhere. For me, it starts here.
Since i’m already writing it for myself, might as well share it to maximise it’s utility! haha
Also, like I mentioned in my homepage - i was really inspired by Khuyen’s writings, and also his level of commitment and consistency. There is an adage that says that actions are more powerful than words. But like all quotes, they need to be understood in specific contexts, not to be dropped anywhere you like. Words are powerful as they are beginnings of the manifestation of our thoughts, which will in turn affect our actions.
Just as how reading Khuyen’s articles inspired me to start this blog, I hope that this blog will also inspire people in living life with greater intention, vulnerability and love.
Why now?
First of all, I have earned enough money to buy a website for myself. Muahaha
And I gained enough ‘skin’ to name my blog with my own name.
Jokes aside, I really want to build enriching practices in my life and live a life I want to live. I am afraid that work, or sometimes my external projects may consume me if i don’t create spaces for reflection and detachment, spaces to ponder in such a fast-paced city I live in.
There is an analogy Tong Yee shared about how Singaporeans tend to think in terms of train tracks - mirroring how our education system is structured - when something doesn’t work, we want to change to another ‘track’, a path that is already built, tried and tested, and seems ‘secure’ enough for us.
Right now in times of covid and multiple changes and transitions, many feel uncomfortable with uncertainty. In order to build train tracks, we need to first forage the forest to explore ways of working. Foraging is uncertain, we never know what we will discover. We need to learn to how to hope, hold on to our faith - or the commitment on we want to create. We must persevere on in order to create the change (or ‘track’) we want to see.
This blog is a space where I seek to create within myself to hold space for the uncomfortable emotions and thoughts I have with myself in my life journey. I feel that this is what growth looks like to me, and I think it’s especially important now. It’s like building a foundation for myself, to stay grounded and open.
So…why did I not write?
When I started this blog, I remembered myself feeling so energised and excited for people to see this!
But there are also moments where I create excuses as I judge myself - “if i’m not feeling inspired, i doubt anyone will feel inspired when they read my blogpost” - these thoughts seem so true. But who really knows if i don’t even write them out?
“The moment you say ‘not possible’, you are also saying ‘i don’t want it’.
“What is possible or not possible is not your business, that is nature’s business - you are using your previous experience in your life to decide - you have decided that what has not happen till now in your life, will not happen in future.”
- Sadhguru
At this moment i realised i also cared more about what people thought, than why I initially set out to do this - primarily a space for self-reflection. Hence this post also serves as a reminder to myself! We all need reminders.
And sometimes, we need multiple reminders - for me it could be my coaching circles, videos i watch over youtube, re-reading my blogposts, reviewing my intentions.
Ending with a short meditation i created out of more wisdom from Sadhguru:
May you live joyfully, peacefully,
Have loving and affectionate relationships,
Pleasantness within and around you.
Health and Pleasure for your body
Peace and Joy for your mind
That you be a source of Love and Compassion (emotion)
That you may create energies of Blissfulness and Ecstasy
And commit yourself to creating it.
Start with a simple thought - ‘I will create a peaceful, loving world.’
Once your thought and emotion are organised, energy will follow, and the body will soon follow. Once thought, emotion, energy and body are aligned - your ability to create and manifest what you want is phenomenal. You are a creator in many ways.